Holy Innocence Page 2
That we love each other, very much
But we have to be apart
Our hearts to know other love:
Let’s just kiss,
And say goodbye
For the sake of the love we once had!
Roses are Red
Maxine was a friend in deed
My best friend,
When frail a shoulder to lean on,
A hand she lend in times of need;
And when all hope’s gone she’s near
No matter how far she was.
When it came the time to face the storm,
She’s right by my side,
She’s the one I relied on
When my love
Was a blown out candle
And my life seemed too hot to handle;
Maxine kept up safe and warm.
I cast all my fears on her
Yet she never heard me cry
Or saw me try,
Never saw the tear drops;
Till a new day came,
Bright as the sun
And I learnt how to survive.
She spoke to me in language so plain
“I love you,”
Gave me a rose of love;
Modestly calmed my ire wit’ life
Watchful, faithful;
Violet so blue
Promised she’ll always be true
Roses are red—she’s a rose.
Love Given up
Past to me was that fateful day
When I watched her walk away,
And I could do nothing to make her stay;
Not that I did not do my best, or pray
To make her come back to my love nest
And when it’s in vain, I had to rest.
Still forlorn, not accepting the reality
I continued to send her flowers
Meaningful from the deep of my heart,
Yet she could do nothing but have me hurt
Throwing all what I gave her back at me;
She made it clear
She didn’t want to see, or meet, me
And when it’s in vain, I had to rest
Gave up on love.
Making Love Tonight
Foreplay, the starter
for the dinner party
Doors sealed shut,
all lights doused
you and me one,
Body and soul laced
Making love tonight.
When the night creeps,
and light chased away
When darkness rules,
and for me you grope;
the stars above,
Twinkling just for us
we’ll make love tonight.
You’ll laugh out loud,
Scream my name aloud
All your self-will and restraint weak,
Passion aflame,
Sweat dampening
Body and soul laced
The nun you are turned tart
This sin clear to see,
Making love tonight.
Come on, babe,
Tear your clothes off
Go wild tonight,
Oral sex ain’t sex
Do all what you’ve ever fantasized—
Lover without indiscretion is no lover at all.
You and I are one,
Together is our destiny
Welcome to real life
Get rid of those convent robes, get wild
‘Morrow you shall be virgin, believe me.
Oh, babe, don’t be shy,
Yearn to fly
I know this is foreign to you,
Fear not
Let’s intertwine, forget you’re nun
Get oral as one,
Buggery ain’t sex
‘Morrow you shall be virgin,
That I promise
Let’s make love tonight.
Destiny’s Girl
I was just having a walk when I met you
I was looking for nobody
When you looked my way,
That killer smile---
Had but to smile back;
Give me a minute and listen to me
I was not smiling at you
You got me wrong.
I like the way you talk you’re strong
Lemme listen to your corny playa lines;
You don’t sound like you’d break my heart
Finding you isn’t a coincidence,
This is destiny bringing us together.
Oh give me a break you’re so fast
It was accidental today we met,
Stop blocking my way and let me pass
If I found me with you I’d go crazy.
Before I go further tell me your name
I like you, and you like me,
Babe, don’t be so mean
I want to walk with your if you don’t mind
Get to know you better, this is destiny.
I’m surprised you’re so hopeful
Take a NO for once and just leave
for if I found me with you
I’d go crazy.
Babe you’re so full of attitude but it’s alright
It’s a matter of time you be my shadow
If I was your love,
I’d love you like crazy
Please say you love me,
Either way this is love.
If I was your love,
I’d love you all the time
Can I be your love,
If you promise you’d be mine?
Either way it won’t work,
If you promised you’d be mine;
Take a NO for once, and
Just leave me alone.
Kiss Mommy Goodbye
Babe you raise me so high
But you can’t help being so shy,
Sometimes I wonder why.
I wanna make you my wife
Together start a new life,
but you can’t kiss mommy goodbye.
When I wanna take you out
I see no way out,
you can’t kiss mommy goodbye.
Sometimes I hurt
Sometimes I hate,
Wonder whether I’m late.
Sometimes you run
sometimes you hide
Seem scared of me.
What I want is to be with you
Stop being so shy
Kiss mommy goodbye,
Come, I love you.
Eternal Love
Love of quiet dignity and grace
Queen of my heart, your palace
I love you, forever shall
give you everything, never stall.
I shall love you till clay becomes gold
Love you till stars grow old
Love you till hell grows ice-cold.
I shall wait for you till lonely becomes fun
Give you all till I have none
Walk with you till the moon becomes the sun.
I shall love you till ocean becomes desert
Sit and dine with you till dessert
Follow you everywhere and home desert.
I shall love you till inanimate is animate
Now you doubt destiny isn’t fate
Come to me, it’s getting late.
Come chase this loneliness away
Give me your hand, let me lead the way
through the darkness to the break of the day
I shall be by your side till we’re all clay;
This love in my heart’s engraved
shall never be graved
Death of body defeated, whence soul’s saved.
Cry
Ire rose like tide
When sweet a woman like you
I saw him hit
and saw you cry.
I pitied you
for the mistake you made,
Felt so hurt
the moment I saw you cry.
I fell for you
madly
the moment I saw you cry.
I am the man
who’d never make you cry
I hate to see you cry.
Since the moment I saw you cry
I’ve wanted to tell you this,
what you’ve wanted to hear;
“O hurt dove, I bid thee come
in my arms find solace
together watch the time pass
you’ll cry no more
He’d regret why
He made you cry.
Goodbye
O mercy me!
What a hapless fate,
I sigh o’er my loss
for never more wit’ me she’ll sit
nor play the old silly games
her lambast,
her censures;
I’ll never see her more.
I know she doesn’t love him,
Not yet,
But with time;
She has a soft heart
Like butter in the sun it’ll melt
He just needs to look at her,
Mimi would be absorbed
Fall in love with him.
I Wish I could marry her myself
keep her safe in the family.
Did Mimi have to leave, be married?
Goodbye’s the hardest thing to say
I shall try not to cry,
or run away;
I shall let the hardest minute crawl away
but still shall break down, cry quarts,
Goodbye’s the hardest thing to say.
Prying Sister
She denies it,
yet I know it—
I can feel it,
smell the stench
its worse than I imagined;
I feel it in the air—love I mean
I ain’t no kid anymore as they think—
and she’s going very fast;
Novels say it all—I read Danielle Steel.
She’s twittery and cross,
She blushes
she has no appetite,
has a timid look
she sleeps less
No doubt she thinks of him.
Yesterday I snooped on her diary
she’s written—”Mrs…”
Infatuation has hastened the evil day for her,
My sister.
The Little Joe Sisters
Impossible to tell
How things’ve changed;
No more do we watch the moon;
Golden nights vanished so soon.
I love to stay at home,
Take care of the family, keep it safe
The perfect wife, loving mother.
I trusted too much,
Hoped far beyond hope,
Had the faith of a mustard seed;
Loved too much,
Yet he went away
Far from my arms,
So the walls came tumbling down
And my love’s a blown out candle.
*
Three cheers for dear Fay
Always so sweet,
regular archangel
yet so frail;
I’ve got no problem with trust
and love burns forever,
But hope mirages away
While faith takes his leave.
I wash and rinse and wring,
I hang the clothes in the sun to dry—
a busy mind isn’t the devil’s workshop
and anxious thoughts are swept away.
I never knew he could stray
until when he crawled to bed
with my best friend,
the very bed
Where be brutally took my innocence
and I say…
“Head, you may think
Heart, dear, you’re hurt, you may feel
But, Flo, darlin’, you shall walk away.”
*
O poor sis!
What a tragedy?
All my candles forever burn
Trust,
Hope,
Faith,
and love;
the problem is him—he’s insecure.
I want to be a beauty queen
and the world’s best ballerina ever,
He wants me there at home
In charge of dishes and dusters;
jeez!
That’s too traditional
Maybe I wasn’t destined for marriage;
I partake nudity shows—says he
He isn’t sure I ain’t a stripper
Or worse still, a call girl
Or I lap dance.
I show too much body, and booty
to those who don’t deserve;
He can’t stand the attention
and the media
Celebrity is hard for him
He calls me Immodest Imogene,
and can’t be with me!
*
Well—what do I say?
I’m Jo, and never shall be anything else
I don’t care, don’t give a damn
about him.
He stares at me, I stare at him.
He yells at me, I yell at him.
He gets mad, I get madder.
We argue, and fight—for nothing
Yet I love him like hell—
More than I tell,
More than I show,
More than he’ll ever know.
I never give up on my faith
and I hope against all hope,
but I’ve got a problem with trust.
I snoop on his e-mails and SMSes,
I hire detectives to tail him,
Spy on him
Just to be sure
He isn’t cheating on me.
He just snapped;
Said we should breathe
Have some time alone.
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O my poor sweet daughters
Bereft of laughter
in this chapter
of your lives.
How I feel sorry for you
for it isn’t a bed of roses;
Fay—
Don’t give too much than is necessary,
It’s dangerous.
Florence—
Celine Dion’s right, ‘Don’t give up on your faith,
love comes to those who believe it, and that’s the way it is’
Imogene—
What a freak you are: you’d rather be loved,
And contented, than a Queen.
And you, my lovely Joanne,
Your pride’s your downfall. Jo can be something else …
Leave everything to time, make your husbands happy.
No More Love
“I hope I don’t see you again,”
I told her that plain.
She wanted me to stay
Yet I walked away
Never looked back (not her way anyway),
I did not want to see the pain
I knew was in her eyes.
It was done
Just like that,
She keeps me on the loop
Still sends those messages
That she still loves me
I wish I could change everything
To another time!
I lack the words
what do I tell her then?
My heart’s forgotten to love
She can’t understand more
Than that she does love me,
I don’t want to lie to her,
Pretend I know love anymore
I just lost the feeling
Not for her
Not for anyone
I don’t know what I’m going to do for her.
Last Night
She used to be like gin
the sweetest taste of sin,
just her touch
my warm-frozen body thawed
Making love was so natural
It was sin to deny e
ach other.
An accident of time occurred
I lost the love feeling, and
The warmth in her eyes
Froze me to ice;
I didn’t close my eyes when she kissed me
She’s like the plague.
That last night together
she wanted us to patch up the feather
Go back to the love we once had
Oh!—it was such a fiasco
I tried to think erotic thoughts
Just for love’s sake
It never happened.
I now love no more
I now love her no more
that accident of time
Just killed my love!
I Hurt Her, She Loves Me
I try to hurt her
She try to love me,
I wanna get caught
She forgives me every time;
I realize she dunno how to get hurt
The mistake I made
We never should have been together.
She’s the good girl
I’m the bad guy,
The mistake I made
I never should’ve played
With her emotions
I ain’t good for her;
Was never made for her!
She kneels down and prays
Behind her back I play her
She thinks I was sent from heaven,
The mistake I made
We never should’ve been together.
She invited me into her heart
I’m out, sleeping with other girls
To have her hurt,
She forgives me every time;
The mistake I made
I never should have
Told her I love her
I don’t wanna this anymore
We never should’ve been together.
I want her to stop loving me
“Can’t stop loving you,” she says
I try to hurt her
She try to love me
I realize she dunno how to get hurt
The mistake I made
We never should have been together.
Walk Away
It’s still fresh on my mind
As though it’s yesterday,
The day he told me
Better never be together;
That we just can’t be.
I remember the stuff,
the craziest things we used to do,
Can’t believe it happened.
I still love him—
I mean—love him;
it’s so hard to walk away.
I saw him with the new girl;
No, it’s actually the wife,
the rank I was never promoted to
and I admit
they are good together.
He has moved on,
For me it’s the hardest thing to do
I still love him,
I mean—want him—
It’s so hard to walk away.
I never gonna walk away,
Shall forever seek his attention.
Without him life’s confusion
Love of my love,
Soul of my soul!
Miss Smitten
I fell in love with a girl
Just like I ever do
Seems like it’s a mistake
Not a wise decision;
Obsessed is what she is
Clinging too much to me
This ain’t where I wanna be
No Mister Smitter.
True I want to be in her arms
when it comes time for romance
you can see us go about it
madly in love
No cares in this world
where everybody can’t help staring!
And when the truth I said
She said she’d die
She can’t live without me
Haunt me for life
My miss smitten!
The Seduction
He marvelled at the beauty
the flowers were so pretty;